I'm in the land of the living again. I luv luv luv my new laptop. I'm happy but also very frustrated because all my ipod stuff is on my old computer and you can not transfer your old itunes, thru your ipod, so basically i have to download over 1000 songs to get my music back on my computer. whatever i have no life really anyways, actually i should say i have no social life.

i have been feeling lately like somewhat of an endangered species. i am one of those rare creatures known as "the single gal". seriously when did it become OK for my girlfriends to turn into these obsessed maniacs over their boyfriends. and you can never actually tell a female she is spending too much time with her boyfriend because they get offended and start rambling on crazy justifications of why they have time to see their guy 6-7 days a week and cant find 1 night too see me. plus i cant say anything either because then it just looks like I'm the jealous single one. i could possibly be anti-relationships right now because I'm still getting thru my rotten one, but come on when we as women start giving up things that truly matter to us for a guy it never ends up being a happy ending. whatever better not say anymore on this subject because too many girls i know fall under this category, and then I'll have a lot of talking to do.

On a different note i think i need to met someone women who are bosses, managers, who are in charge. i am now the operations manager of motel 6, property #1907. and i am having a hell of a time. I'm learning pretty quickly it is very hard to be a 27 year old running a hotel. most people that see me think I'm 18 (truthfully i look it), they ask to speak with my boss or manager and i say"I'm the boss you can speak with me" they look at me like i couldn't possible know anything about anything. they think cause I'm a women for one, that I'm going to be intimidated by them (men especially do this to me) and think that cause I'm so young i couldn't have a position of more then a housekeeper. its very frustrated I'm very good at my job, and i really hate that older people do not know how to handle a person who is younger then them who have authority over them. I try to talk with my boss, and he doesn't understand because he doesn't have those things happen to him, because no man is going to question his decisions. its very frustrating and i know this isn't going to be an easy road.

Oh ya another thing to share is that i'm offically now trying to loose weight. i know people are always saying you should'nt diet. and im not, well not really. i am going to try and eat properly -no take-out, im going to try and eat the proper portions, and im going to try and work out more. Im also reading dr.phil's book, so well see how it goes. according to doctor phil im a emotional eater. i hate to admit it , it is totally true! i clearly got in a fight with my ex last week and i clearly ate a bag of peanut m&m's. so this should be an interesting adventure, im lazy, i like takeout but i'll be damned if i dont get thinner. im am not going to turn out to be a crazy old lady with 6 dogs and no husband who eats a bag of cookies everyday.

Ok enough of my ramblings im going to go pre-pare my healthy dinner, my deck of cards size chicken, my 1/2 cup of snow peas, and my 1/2 of cup of cus-cus, and my 8oz glass of skim milk! mmmmmmm so yummy! while i make this im totally going to be dreaming of my big-mac, french fries, large coke and a bowl of icecream mmmmmmmm! icecream!